I don’t really understand why people do it. Not like “they’re doing it because they are depressed and feel bad”, I had depression myself but never had a call to injure myself. I hate pain, and doing something painful to myself while I’m already feeling bad doesn’t really sound appealing. So I don’t quite get what self-harm gives people so they keep doing it.
Like, is it a way to “ground” yourself and stop dissociating, or is it “just to feel anything at all”, or as a “punishment”, or something else?
To quote Trent Reznor, “I hurt myself today to see if I still feel.”
I don’t do “typical” self-harm. When my depression really gets me in it’s grips, I be fine myself banging my head against the wall.
When the internal pain gets so bad, the external pain can be a distraction from it.