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  • It’s been more than fice years since I touched it, but it didm’t work too great for me.

    My problem with it is that it requires you to set it all up. The tasks, frequency, chains, point values, etc. I was always second guessing my settings, and it’s very easy to make it too easy.

    You have to want it to work, and not want to metagame the gamification of your todo list. That gets harder when you look at the social aspects of it and see all the people with high scores and such who absolutely are metagaming the system instead of just using it as a habit aid.



  • wizardbeard@lemmy.dbzer0.comtoLemmy Shitpost@lemmy.worldDo we ?
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    Then you do, in fact, want to be here. So fuck off with the bullshit and accept that you’ve decided you’re here for the ride.

    This isn’t tough and the tldr is my first post, but you’re clearly more interested in wallowing in it than moving past your disordered thinking.



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    Spoken like someone who has never had to deal with those thoughts.

    Nice baseless assumption fuckboy.

    For those unfamiliar, those are anti-depressants and anti-anxiety meds. Mine.

    I’ve already spouted my personal psychological issues across other comments. I’m so sorry that I didn’t take the time to qualify my statement with an essay about my personal bullshit here.


    I’m truly sorry about what you’re going through. If you feel that way then you aren’t getting the help you need. Notably, you also already have your clear reason not to end it. You should focus on that and work to build more reasons not to instead of getting pissy at an internet stranger for calling people out on glorification of suicide.


    To put this as simple as fucking possible, in incredibly vague and simplistic terms (that are still true by personal fucking experience)

    • Repeated self talk about how you don’t want to be alive and the like isn’t going to help you or anyone else who is having these feelings. It reinforces those thought patterns that you clearly already understand are not healthy.

    • Being able to identify when you are having those disordered thoughts and doing your best to turn away from them helps reinforce against those patterns. It gets easier over time.

    • Posting suicidal ideation content into the void of the internet does not ultimately help you or others with handling or moving past those feelings

    There is value in knowing you’re not alone in your feelings, and humor reaches farther than other means, sure. But the internet as a whole is clearly far past that point, and I’m getting increasingly more exhausted sitting by and watching this shit be normalized.


    I’ve been living with ADHD my whole life (close to 35 years now). Depression (officially) for around 15. Anxiety for around a decade.

    There’s at least a five year span of my life that effectively isn’t there. There’s still a small voice in the back of my head afraid I’ll either wake up one morning and be back there, or I’ll come back to my senses and find that the past decade has been all delusion as my car is plummeting off the local bridge or into oncoming traffic lanes from what was a constant battle every day not to just fucking do it.

    And I’m not talking about the relatively “normal” time sink from the covid lockdowns.

    I have a mental list of various options for how I’d do it if it came to it, backed by actual fucking research. I did back then too, and was fucked up enough to not care anymore about the hurt to those around me or the potential pain to myself from doing it in a dumb as hell way like a traffic accident. Good way to end up still alive but crippled physically and financially for the rest of your life.


    Anyway.

    One of the hardest things to accept is that there is some logic and soundness to the dumbasses saying “have you just tried not being x?”.

    It’s not that simple, true. People who don’t have these issues will never understand, true. It will be some of the most unrewarding, soul draining shit you’ve ever attempted, and there’s no shame if you can’t get there yet or if you can’t do it on your own.

    But here’s the worst part: they aren’t entirely wrong.

    You build your healthy coping mechanisms and your psychological toolkit to fight against this shit through constant neverending effort to work against the bad internal shit. The more you work against it, the stronger those tools get. Eventually, like repeated practice of martial arts or musical instruments over years, the things that took concious effort will begin to become unconcious. The equivalent of mental muscle memory, for lack of a phrase for it that doesn’t sound silly.

    You’ll stumble. You’ll fail. You’ll have to start back over from what feels like (and may actually be) square one. But that work against it is ultimately the core of any way you’re going to be able to keep moving forward.

    It will never be as simple as “just don’t be sad, lol”, but some aspect of your journey out of it will have to come from personal effort to not be what you are today.


    On top of all that?

    This isn’t even an actually funny joke about not wanting to exist anymore. “haha, I don’t want to live anymore even though they do! Rofl lmao.”

    Boo! Get some better material.


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    I think a lot of people doing the funny haha suicidal ideation thing forget that it’s entirely within their power to opt-out of life if they really mean it.

    Edit: and the evidence that you’re still here would happily indicate that you don’t truly mean it. So could you all please just cut it out?











  • I built right as the nVidia 3000 series came out, and when I wasn’t able to get one in the first month or two after release I said fuck it and bought one of the last new 2070 Supers I could find. Hooray for availability alerts.

    I’ve been wanting to upgrade parts for like a year now, because it’s just starting to have issues with higher graphics settings on 1440p (had 1080p monitors when I bought it). Glad I went with 64GB RAM (DDR4, as was the standard of the time) and a little above mid range on the CPU. It’s absolutely fucking absurd to me that the parts that are still available (mobo, PSU, and GPU aren’t anymore) have effectively held their price point.




  • You probably already know, but for the crowd:

    Usually thin clients are clients that remotely connect into a central server that runs their VM, and the VM actually handles the compute. Like older mainframe and endpoint setups.

    There’s still some minor compute hardware/resources on the thin client itself, but it’ll probably be more lightweight than expected. Maybe equivalent to an early model raspi?